The mid-point of the year has passed.
Sometimes it feels like time is running away from me, and other times it seems to screech to a halt and I am a rabbit in the headlights.
I have a terrible compulsion to over-fill my days, for fear that if I stop I will have to confront myself, and my alone-ness.
Sunday is my "day off" from exercise and inevitably I get twitchy and take to stomping round the fields or dancing madly to Radio One, because I cannot bear to remain still.
I find myself standing with my car keys in my hand, thinking I will just pop to the gym for an hour, because there I will find my balance again.
|Union Square pattern by Mina Philip|
All of the socks, all of the time.
I am working through the New York Sock Collection by Mina Philip.
I have finished one pair and have another two on the needles.
Two further patterns in the series have been published and I plan to cast those on soon.
|Avenues Socks by Mina Philip|
My happy place is at the circus fitness studio.
I am by far the oldest person there, but I do not feel judged.
It is hard physical work.
One week I am better at aerial silks than trapeze. The next time, the opposite.
I tried aerial hoop too... and it was fun... but I can't do everything.
|Mermaid pose - my hand should be lower down the rope, to fall further|
I discovered that I am far less bendy than I assumed myself to be.
In my head, I am still that drama student who can touch her forehead with her big toe.
Ha! Not so much.
So I have added a vinyasa yoga class to my regime.
I was so relaxed at the end of my first class that I had to drink a strong coffee before I felt alert enough to drive home!
Flexibility and balance - much needed.
Allowing myself to go with the flow.
Letting life wash over me.
Open to possibilities.
Sometimes peaceful but never quite at peace with myself.